Here I Go Again On My Own

Have you ever wanted something so badly that you would give anything to make it happen?

Well for more years than I can count now that has been my story. I know I have my faults (perhaps a few too many) but deep down I think I am a good and caring person.

Recently I have began to question myself though, 2 failed marriages and countless relationships all end in the same fashion, Crash & Burn! I try to give of myself but you can only face rejection so many times before you finally throw in the towel and quit, but that is a task I really don’t do well because if I have wanted something in the past I made it happen.

Do I have some kind of issue that in my sub conscience that makes me predestined to never be happy?

Am I truly an ass and cruel to those I come in contact with?

I really don’t have much to offer to anyone but the knowledge I have gained in 39 years and that must not be very much considering the boat I am in currently.

Being unemployed and more or less homeless hasn’t helped matters either. There are so many things I want to do but they will have to wait.

I just have to hold fast to the belief that everything happens for a reason and wait for tomorrow……… Tomorrow is a brand new day

 

Byron

Tears, Chocolate Cake and A Circle of Friends

So these last couple months have been nothing better than a period of time thrown into a huge mixing bowl and combined into a gigantic ball of confusion and frustration.
Today however, it’s time to get up and get dressed and face another day

Something that has bothered me for a while but even more over the last few weeks.
“I can’t believe he did this” or “I had no idea it was this bad”
Well folks, he did and yes it was that bad.
I knew my friend for only a few months, but in that time we cried, we laughed and when I needed that extra pick-me-up I always heard “Hey man you need a hug?”
I may not fully understand what he was thinking, but at some point human suffering can only be taken for so long without giving into the demons inside.

So my friend, if there truly is a place up there waiting on us, please know your work down here will not go unfinished.

Please know that we aren’t mad at you and we don’t judge you for what you have done, rather we stand and salute you for the kindness and concern you have shown to each and every one, whether you saw it or not.

Take care my friend, and know this world will NOT be the same without you.

Byron

P.S.
If the chocolate cake is better up there, save us some!

Miss you bro!

It Is What It Is

Is it really that wrong to just want to "Belong" to something or someone?

Perhaps "Belong" is just too strong of a word to use and should be stricken
from my vocabulary?

Maybe it’s just that my expectations are simply too demanding?

I refuse to be anyone other than ME!

Take it and embrace ME or step out of the way please!

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Nature Is The Best Medicine

Since I have been out of work it does get quite boring waiting on the phone to ring so here are a few images I have captured along the way.

These are just a few of thousands of photos I have taken, so if you like what you see, why not head over to my page at Facebook and give me a like Byron Ancel Photography

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Random Fact From My World

Music is a strange thing.
It can make you want to get up and dance one minute and the next you just want to cry in your beer.
My MacBook has just over 2200 songs (6:11:21:40 total time to be exact) and there are 3 libraries of music merged into one (wait make that 4) but anyway I have probably listened to each track in my iTunes at least once and in it you can find anything from  Now Volume 7/ Evan And Jaron/ "From My Head To My Heart"
to Chicago/"Stay The Night" hell I even have German lessons mixed in there that pop up randomly (Don’t ask!)

Anyway, I guess that everyone has their own stance on life and how to live it but at least we have the music to keep us all sane

This probably makes no sense to you and thats ok, it does to me and I share

Byron

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Lullaby

 

 

 

Hush my love now don’t you cry
Everything will be all right
Close your eyes and drift in dream
Rest in peaceful sleep

If there’s one thing I hope I showed you
If there’s one thing I hope I showed you
Hope I showed you

Just give love to all
Just give love to all
Just give love to all

Oh my love in my arms tight
Every day you give me life
As I drift off to your world
Rest in peaceful sleep

I know there’s one thing that you showed me
I know there’s one thing that you showed me
That you showed me

Just give love to all
Just give love to all
Just give love to all
Let’s give love to all
Let’s give love to all

Just give love to all
Let’s give love to all
Just give love to all
Let’s give love to all

 

~Creed

Saying Hello To Goodbye

The last 6 months have been a strange mix of really good days and times that I wish the world would just come to an end.

Well the world is still spinning as I write this post, so that must be a sign that even though things come to an end, time and people move on.

Today I am saying goodbye to something that has been a struggle from day one. Not that it was horrible by any means, but sometimes people are different, they may have some of the same goals and dreams, but goals and dreams can’t always be the glue that holds together a relationship.

I asked in a Facebook post “If life had a rewind button, would you use it?” and the responses were interesting. Some people replied emphatically “NO!” and some said “Maybe”.   I didn’t reply because I am torn. If I went back, I would not be the person I am today (perhaps that wouldn’t be a bad thing). My eyes have seen some of the most beautiful things this world has to offer, but then again they have seen things that I would never ever wish on even the most evil person.

I truly regret that things have turned out the way they did and although the pain sometimes seems too great to bear, I have to hold fast to the belief that Everything Happens For A Reason.

This journey has been turbulent at times and I appreciate those of you who have stuck by my side even when it seemed there was no hope left.

Eternally Grateful and Forever Indebted,

Byron